To dream of white rats denotes...

To see rats in your dream, signifies feelings of doubts, guilt and/or envy. You are having unworthy thoughts that you are keeping to yourself but are eating you up inside. Alternatively, it denotes repulsion. To see a white rat in your dream, denotes that in your time of distress, you will receive assistance from an unexpected source.

I woke with relief, wondering why. something passed me, possibly in the night or maybe that afternoon, but my breathing seems less quick and... i close my eyes and... i'm trying not to think too much... but there's a little voice in the back of my mind that i can't bring myself to tell you what she's saying.

I go back to holding my breathe, just for a little bit longer.